Hello sweet friends. I hope you are well and life is lavishing sunshine on you. I never intended to be gone for so long and didn't like leaving you like that, but I did need the space. Something heavy but necessary to go through kept me at first, then 5000 words of assignments to write by pure stubbornness alone, and finally a weekend promised to babysitting for our friends in London.
The last exams are looming over me at the end of this week and the results of the first exams will be sent the following. Even though I hope I managed to crawl over the pass mark it was difficult and I'm not at all sure. The burdens in your mind and heart are always so much heavier than anything physical bearing down on you. I won't talk anymore about it though. Being tired and weary is one thing, dwelling on it another.
After I've rested I've got so many things I want to do and they're like little sparkly fairy lights at the back of my mind. I know there are things to look forward to and I try to keep returning to those, forgetting and then remembering again as they twinkle in the background. Several wonderful things have happened too in the meantime to make me beam and believe in the beauty of life - one of my photos was on the front page and spotlight on Etsy, sweet people ordered my prints, I received unexpected gifts (from such amazing friends), I was given yet another You Make My Day award, I was tagged twice (ooh - I'm excited about that!) and I've still got the writing about writing post nearly finished.
The photo above I'd called the field on the other side of the lane, which it is, but someone in the comments on flickr renamed it gate to fairyland which I thought suited it better, don't you? I like door to the land of faeries myself. Whenever I'm not studying these days I disappear through that door, finding enchanted worlds and meaningful living. Faerie food doesn't sustain you unless you use it to grow yourself food in the real world though. I've been living a bit too much in dreams lately, it's time to grow a garden the other side of that meadow. This is my year of vitality, I try to remember that, a year of real life. Of warm, throbbing, exhilirating, hands-in-the-soil, feet on the ground, adventurous, colourful, shining, light in the eyes, far from perfect and delightfully human living.
I'll be back soon, and sooner than that to all you people I haven't visited in a long time now. Until then wishing you sprinkles of faerie dust and that sudden joy of being alive that makes your heart suddenly rush and your feet dance an extra step into your walk.
the magical garden gate with the twinkling fairy lights is my favourite too on the inspiration clothes-line. it's from this delightful online shop called cox & cox.
That is my favorite photo of all your photos..through it I see purity! honesty! beauty! perfection! I love that photo...and congratulations on the sellings...and the cover! I'm so proud of you!
Your words are magical! and like fairy dust...sprinkled on my heart!
Missed you sooo much! xx
Posted by: linni | Monday, 03 March 2008 at 23:31
i have been away myself, peeking in and around in little bits ... hugs! xo
Posted by: darlene | Tuesday, 04 March 2008 at 03:39
Hello there! I've visited you here a few times, and just have to say these photographs have captured my heart...and imagination! Could you please let me know if you are going to put them in your etsy shop...I would love some prints!
Thank you for this magical post!
xx
Posted by: Celeste | Tuesday, 04 March 2008 at 04:49
You are an amazing writer...mostly because you take me somewhere else. I love those photos. Is it really that green??? *sigh*
I have been adoring the photos I bought from you. I am painting two frames for them. They are so very lovely, and knowing where they came from makes me smile every day.
You truly live in the land of fairies there, hey? Oh, but you remind me that they live here, too. Just snow fairies right now...
love & xo
Posted by: kateri | Tuesday, 04 March 2008 at 11:40
hello beautiful caroline,
it seems so much of our bloggy sisterhood has been on a blogging sabbatical so to speak, so you are not alone :)
I'm just sending love and support as you weave your way through exams and fairy land too... may you emerge rested, inspired, and full of a renewed sense of *joy.
sending love on the wings of sprites and forest nymphs :)
xoxo
Posted by: joan | Tuesday, 04 March 2008 at 13:59
Hello Caroline!
You have been missed and it was such a pleasant surprise to find a new entry when I checked today.I seconds Linni - your words are magical and have a way of making the day brighter. Good luck as you complete your exams!
Posted by: Rebekah | Wednesday, 05 March 2008 at 01:29
What a wonderful post...
Amazing photos! Your blog is one of my favorites!!!
Hug from Marie :)
Posted by: Marie | Wednesday, 05 March 2008 at 11:18
Good luck with your exams! I know the feeling of having little sparkly fairy lights enticing you while trying to focus on less interesting work. Wish I could step into the magical picture and romp through the field with you. Looks heavenly.
Posted by: Chloe | Wednesday, 05 March 2008 at 14:49
Good luck with your exams-love the top photo.
Posted by: Angie | Wednesday, 05 March 2008 at 17:24
These photos are so magical! Thank you for this beauty while I sit in at my work desk longing to run and play in the sun...
Love to you alway, and until I can give you a big in person - mmmmmm! for you!
:-D
Love,
Me
Posted by: PixieDust | Wednesday, 05 March 2008 at 18:23
Ohhhh...these photographs are magical! I wish I could zip myself through our computer screens so you could take me there. I would love to breathe in the field scents, to hear that beautiful gate creak open, to feel a warm breeze on my skin.
Good luck with the rest of your exams! I'll keep my fingers and toes crossed for you! :)
Posted by: susanna | Thursday, 06 March 2008 at 14:18
as the snow continues to fall and i'm surrounded by the quiet slumber of winter, my visits here are hopeful reminders that spring is not as far away as it seems.
thank you so much for these gorgeous photos!!!
xo
Posted by: Kirsten Michelle | Saturday, 08 March 2008 at 19:26
WOOOW...those photos! Fairie land, indeed. Sounds like a lot of well-deserved goodness coming your way... xoxo
Posted by: Marilyn | Tuesday, 11 March 2008 at 13:31
wonderful doors ! so poetic ! so meaningful
Posted by: le petit cabinet de curiosites | Thursday, 13 March 2008 at 09:22
There are the quantities dissertation writing and thesis writing but your very smart outcome reffering to this good topic. Therefore, to know more you should purchase the french dissertation.
Posted by: uL28Lara | Friday, 05 February 2010 at 22:57