Lately things have not been so easy. I want to hunker down for the dark season, go into hibernation, gather my strength and nurture my heart. Take all my dream seedlings in from the garden and look them over and take stock of the year, pore over next year's garden catalogs, you know. I've still got heady things to do though - assignments due, clinical hours to attend, exams to study for and practicing to do in-between. Sigh...
Making lists and poring over my calendar is my way of coping - at least I have an overview then. I love lists and on a bad day when in dire need of one I'll put everything on it: prepare supper - tick, tidy up the floor - tick, go for a walk - tick! Few things are more satisfying and justifying for your existence I find - yep, done that and at least one person noticed that it matters.
One reason I need lists and calendars badly is because I'm such an inveterate dreamer, I frankly don't get things done. I need to have it on paper somewhere, something to make it real, make me realise that hey, I can do this and if it's for me - I deserve it. This 101 Things in 1001 Days list I've spent weeks putting together and it's all for me - only things (dreams!) to help me feel good! So yes, I have been poring over next year's garden catalog, though I don't technically have the time for it.
And right now I need it, not to do them now necessarily but to know that I've got all these seeds growing and sprouting underneath the surface, gathering energy and magic, even though I can't tend them for the moment. In the spring there'll be tiny fresh green tips poking out of the soil, but for now they're safely tucked under a layer of leaves, only a few showing above the blanket.
I've put the whole list on a page in my sidebar to keep track and then I'll tell you about each number in a post whenever I've turned that particular challenge into reality. The challenges are of all kinds really, from the small to the down-right scary. I just know I'm going to enjoy this though - it's just what I need. To have an incentive, inspiration and witnesses.
So, by Thursday the 2nd of September 2010 I aim to:
1. Get my acupuncture degree
2. Send three unexpected presents in the post
3. Comment on two new blogs per week for 2 months
4. Move to Devon and nearer the ocean
5. Adopt a rescue lurcher or greyhound
6. Make our porch more homely by planting lavender in big ceramic pots
7. Begin wearing jewellery that makes me feel feminine
8. Create my own Christmas cards
9. Buy a pair of plain, but funky, boots – and wear them
10. Enter one more drawing in Illustration Friday
11. Join a knitting group
12. Do a course in using either Photoshop, Illustrator or other software
13. Sew a linen gypsy/peasant skirt
14. Create my own website and move my blog there
15. Create a Blurb book about Brockwood Park
16. Make a quiche
17. Fill a notebook with things I am grateful for, that make me happy and/or that I wish for daily
18. Get a DSLR camera
19. Set up an Etsy shop with things I have had ideas for
20. Finish one college assignment ahead of deadline
21. Invite three people for dinner, not necessarily all at the same time
22. Visit three British RHS gardens
23. Do a course in realistic drawing
24. Finish three craft projects that I have the material for but not the commitment
25. Do a Reiki course
26. Visit a retirement home as a volunteer once I have a dog for them to stroke
27. Go on a train trip to Scotland
28. Knit a cardigan, with the help of someone
29. Join a yoga or qigong class
30. Plant a vegetable garden, however small
31. Plan and create a surprise for Duncan (Ssh, don’t tell him!)
32. Sew a quilt for our bed
33. Introduce one daily ritual of reflection of some sort
34. Take five photos that are not my ordinary style
35. Order an organic vegetable box delivery
36. Book and treat myself to a massage
37. Get and use a Gocco to print on paper and fabric
38. Have a one-month theme on my blog
39. Take photos of my family during one of my visits home
40. Join another blogger's theme or challenge, at least three times
41. Learn 10 new recipes that are more intricate than my patience normally allows
42. Show 10 drawings, paintings or other artwork on my blog
43. Go through a ritual to become aware of and let go of fears
44. Find a mentor, for my acupuncture practice or life (oh, how I'd love to have that...)
45. Have a garden and plant flowers in colours I love
46. Go for a very early morning walk before work
47. Find and do up a vintage wooden ironing board to inspire my sewing
48. Sew an apron in linen, with a large pocket on the front
49. Take five photos that take courage
50. Call my mum every Thursday for two months
51. Send my grandpa a card for every season in a year
52. Take five photos that tell a story
53. Sew a simple linen dress
54. Come up with one monthly ritual, for the first or last day, and do it for three months
55. Design a pattern to print on fabric
56. Sew a pair of loose trousers
57. Find out how to and begin making photo collages sometimes in my blog
58. Offer my photos for sale as prints, on Etsy or my own webpage
59. Go camping and hiking on the Southwest Coastal Path
60. Join a dance class of some sort, just for the joy of moving, no performing
61. Come up with a tradition of my own for Christmas
62. Sew a bag with real handles
63. Come up with a tradition of my own for celebrating autumn
64. Come up with a tradition of my own for celebrating spring
65. Come up with a tradition of my own for celebrating summer
66. Bring indoors finds of nature for each season of a year and display it
67. Get an inspiration board to have over my desk
68. Find and get a (preferably vintage) wooden, rustic kitchen/dining table
69. Visit an art gallery
70. Create a Blurb book for my dad
71. Get some of Iris Hantverk’s natural brushes and dust-pans
71. Do five pieces of embroidery
72. Create my own Christmas decorations
73. Go for a real picnic with wicker basket, picnic blanket and eat-with-your-fingers-food
74. Sleep outdoors for a night
75. Buy flowers every week for a month
76. Knit a teapot cozy
77. Bring a blanket on a mild night and lie down for some stargazing
78. Call each of my three brothers five times
79. Write ten letters to friends
80. Walk barefoot at least ten times in a summer
81. Watch a summer sunrise
82. Begin singing to myself again
83. Do my I’m-on-my-own-and-I-can-dance-as-I-like routine once per week for two months
84. Create a notebook of poetry and quotes that speak to me (like the one I made in my teens and threw away)
85. Pick up my habit of morning skin brushing and neti cleansing again for a month
86. Gradually save up £1000 for a rainy day
87. Prepare and pack lunch to bring to the school (work) 5 days a week for two months
88. Compile a list of both small, commonplace things and out of the ordinary adventures I can do that make me happy when I need to be reminded
89. Eat one green leafy vegetable at least every other day for a month
90. Take my vitamins every day for a month
91. Imagine and write down all the things I would like in my life, as if I already had it
92. Find and get to know a kindred spirit local to where we will live
93. Walk into a classy shop that intimidates me, try out garments I like as if I belonged in that shop, find something that makes me feel luxurious and elegant and buy the piece of clothing even though the price tag is beyond my usual budget. And feel good about it.
94. Sew a picnic blanket to bring for beach excursions, walks in the woods or packed lunches in city parks
95. Find and gather a collection of beautiful but simple boxes for storing any belongings that don’t have a proper place (I love boxes! And bags. And anything that can hold and organise – well, pockets big or small basically. I don’t have near enough of them)
96. Start up a co-op for sharing deliveries from a healthfood shop
97. Go for at least three train trips to places within an hour from where we live
98. Go to a café on my own, bring a book, a notebook and my camera and just enjoy myself, at least five times
99. Take more (weekly!) baths with lavender oil, nurturing music and a thorough body maintenance including a good scrub
100. Introduce a daily way of relaxing, a time just for me - to let go
101. Go for a walk through the woods every day
Yikes!
I love this. I'm a list maker too, obsessively. They keep me moving, keep me sane, keep all the swirling black scary anxiety from eating me up. I hear you on taking better care of ourselves (vitamins!) and stargazing (why don't we do this more -- I did it all the time as a kid?).
Posted by: Abbey | Friday, 07 December 2007 at 00:14
I really like your list. I need to go through my list and update - the things that I've completed and also, remove a couple items that no longer interest.
Posted by: kristen | Friday, 07 December 2007 at 00:29
Wow, I'm very impressed with your list. I'd start with the quiche, it seems to be a way to have an early success!
Posted by: Aidan Laura | Friday, 07 December 2007 at 01:20
Lovely photos.
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Written on the wind.
Posted by: poetryman69 | Friday, 07 December 2007 at 11:07
Your list is beautiful! I would like to adopt your idea as I feel quite similar about the turning of things into reality.
Would you mind if I steal some of your challenges as well? You truly have got some very pretty ones (well, in fact all of them are wonderful!) that I haven't thought about so far but seem a very good fit.
~oceangypsy
Posted by: oceangypsy | Friday, 07 December 2007 at 23:36
Abbey - I know! I'm so glad I share my life with someone who's still a kid, I'm sure I can convince him of some stargazing. :)
Kristen - I'm glad you're going to modify your list as to what you're still interested in as I'd like to do that too further on. Besides, I realised now that I've still got stuff that I've managed to do in the time it took me to compose the list, so I'll have to scrap those. I think I might keep a 'joker' for when I come up with something really great later on, as I knew I would once the list was done. Thanks for the inspiration from your list by the way :)
Aidan Laura - :D Yeah, that quiche. It's got a number all to itself just because it's haunted me for months now since I decided I wanted to make one (without dairy or wheat). It was for some reason more of a challenge than I thought, but now...
Thank you poetryman :)
Oceangypsy (love your name!) - sure you can borrow as much as you like, glad the list spoke to you. :) Good luck!
Posted by: caroline | Saturday, 08 December 2007 at 22:52
Firstly, I went to your etsy to purchase a photo of your banner but didn't find it in your shop. Would you like to do a trade? Or could I buy it from you. I love it so much.
I was just thinking about the need to make more lists-as it seems I get so much more satisfaction, clarity and tasks completed when I do.
I love your list and will be making my own-my 1001 days ends September 5, 2010:)
I too have been interested in being an acupuncturist and many other things pull at me on your list.
Congrats for making this list-and beginning the 1001 days. What a fabulous adventure.
Posted by: Thea | Sunday, 09 December 2007 at 12:47
Caroline ~ I have not read the entire post
so I will read and comment a second time
but "Devon" leapt out at me ~ I have
family that live there ~
can I come visit you when you move?
Yay!
I just know you will say yes and I will come
to see you!
Posted by: maddie | Sunday, 09 December 2007 at 17:09
i am going to keep coming back on
commenting on random things in your list ~
for instance ~ I adore boxes too!
~ and can you please list this photo above on
your etsy ~ in a small size? I want to
buy it:)
PLEASE? I LOVE it!
Posted by: maddie | Sunday, 09 December 2007 at 17:16
Thea - yes! I would love to do a trade. :) I can't wait to see your list!
Maddie - no way! Where in Devon? We will meet for sure then, for chai and some beach combing :) I'm so looking forward to moving, most likely in a year from now, next Christmas when I have a gap in my college days. Hehee!
I'll put that photo up, I like it too. And you're right, it would look best in a small size. In fact I think I'm going to change my listings and have them all in smaller sizes. I'd love to sell some in notecards and postcards too. :)
Posted by: caroline | Monday, 10 December 2007 at 15:26
Wow, that's quite the list! All wonderful ideas. I'm a dreamer too and need lists to keep me in line!
Posted by: Angie | Tuesday, 11 December 2007 at 17:24
love your list!! i've got to finish mine!
i came your way via maddie and i just love your blog!
the shirts you make are gorgeous! would you be selling them in the etsy shop you're going to open. you are just bursting with talent and creativity!
Posted by: leah | Monday, 17 December 2007 at 02:40
Dear Caroline:
I am a literary agent living and working in New York City and I love your blog; in particular your 101 things in 1001 days idea. I see a wonderful highly photographed/illustrated inspirational journal, and I was wondering if you would be interested to write/discuss this further? I am happy to email and/or call you.
My email:
[email protected]
website: martinliterarymanagement.com
happy holidays.
Ronnie
Posted by: Mr. Ronnie Gramazio | Tuesday, 25 December 2007 at 21:25
Very inspirational!! Love your blog and will visit it often.
Posted by: Lori | Wednesday, 26 December 2007 at 01:07
Very inspirational!! Love your blog and will visit it often.
Posted by: Lori | Wednesday, 26 December 2007 at 01:09
I love, love, love your list!! I stumbled upon your blog because I'm writing my own list now and was looking for others to inspire me. Beautiful photography and there are so many things on your list that are so "me" but you have expressed them in such a fantastic way. I'll definitely visit this blog again. I'm intrigued to see how you get on :) Take care Gemma x
Posted by: Queen Bee | Saturday, 05 January 2008 at 13:36
I came across your blog because I have had a gocco printer for about 2 months and today got around to using it and googled gocco and found your blog. Boy did it make me laugh, in my head I have loads of your things I want to do, some i have done but you have a long way to go, how is it going? I'd love to know.
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Hello dear, I just wanted to say that I find your blog very inspiring, and great list btw.
I hope you do well in the future and keep on the good work. / Elsa
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