There goes the fear

Out of here
We're out of here
Out of heartache
Along with fear

There goes the fear again
There goes the fear

Close your brown eyes
And lay down next to me
Close your eyes, lay down
'Cos there goes the fear
Let it go

You turn around and life's passed you by
You look to ones you love to ask them why
You look to those you love to justify
You turned around and life's passed you by
Passed you by again

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There goes the fear again
Let it go
There goes the fear
Let it go

The Doves

This song was in my head all through the three month yoga retreat I attended. Especially during the month of complete silence it would pipe up whenever I got lost in thoughts, making me smile. It was like a friend, a happy feeling somewhere inside, a crazy drum beat that would make my heart flutter and my body feel light and mischievious. The retreat was a retreat in the true sense of the word with no contact with the outer world and no music apart from the singing, playing of instruments and dancing we occasionally did in the evenings. This retreat was very difficult and frightening for me in some ways and some aspects of myself that were challenged there I am still struggling with.

However, it was very important to me as well because I learnt so much and found myself in a way I might not have had I never gone, so I am grateful. Hearing this song again yesterday I wanted to write about it because when I came back out from the ashram listening to this song was one of the first things I did. It was like drinking water after having been thirsty for a very long time and the feeling still makes me happy, that crazy drum beat escalating, jumping up and down with the joy of being free, shaking all the heaviness out of my body.

'Cos there goes the fear. Let it go.

Comments

[linni]

Reading this post give me chills down my spine...if I've 'met' you last year...I would not have had the 'connection' with your words that I feel I'm having now...I was not ready for any of what I'm feeling/thinking...

This year is my year for meditating...going to an ashram (!)...and letting it all go...so many thought going through my mind...and now I read this post...I'm astounished...I believe that God send people (and books) to you when you are ready to learn from them...and here you are! xx